after 2 months...

I don’t know if fate has forsaken me. I’m in deep pain as usual. I was badly hurt emotionally . It has been 2 months from now when it started and it came to my senses that the relationship that I had was really crumbling down on me like boulders falling in my head it’s really painful when he said...."I’m sorry... ayoko na".
I really hate myself for the reason that I am a submissive person.
It’s so hard for me to think that there is someone out there who would see and appreciate me for who I am.